| well.. yesterday was the most depressing day ever. my boyfriend cam who happens to be the guy of my flipping dreams broke up with me . it was on our 4 week anniversary too which mad it just soooooo much worse. i just left the computer right away n all i could do was sit there and cry. ive never cried this much in a week in my life. i knew it was coming. like all week he didnt seem very intressted in me anymore so i kinda knew so i got upset like every night casue i didnt want this to happen becasue i honestly liked him so mch n i wanted our relationship to last... but i have to respect what he said. he still wants to be friends but he doesnt want to talk with me for a little bit. its killing me i hate this. i wish i could hvae fixed what i did to make this happen. o god im starting to cry even writing this it hurts so much. now that i look back on our relationship and looked at how i treated him i hvae to say i was such obnoxious bitch to him. i really was i cant deny that. what he saw when i was talking to him wasnt me... i dont know where the real me went when i was with him.. maybe i was trying to look cool by being rude and a bitch i dont know but i wish he could have seen me the real me not the one he saw. i think if i wasnt like how i was.. we never would have broken ujp n this thing would have lasted.. but i cant have everything i want.. i cant be selfish i have to accept this..o great im like balling now,, this is awosome. i just miss him so much n its only the first day we havmnt been ging out i cant even imagine the days to come. how can you be friends with someone you like soo soo soo much when they dont even like you back?? it is gonna kill me n i know im gonna get over this but i eraly hope that i can show him the true me n not the annoying girl he saw n we can get back together.. i know its not gonna happen but i can only hope that it will... cam if you read this.. im so sry for the way i treated you.. i was not me i sware.. i was suchan asshole to you n i wish i could take it back ( shit this is hard when your crying) i still want to be friends and hang out if thats not too akward for you. but i just want to say that im sry for the way i was with you n how retarded i was acting cause it wasnt me.. i hope im not seeming too desperate but i just want to tell you that i regret every little thing that i did adn said n i wish you could have seen me the one you liked before we were dating i dont know why i wasnt being taht bit i think it was because i was trying to be too cool for school... im sry and i hope we can be freinds n talk again.... everyone who reads this... just know how much it hurts to loose the guy of your dreams in one day beacause of your idiotness. comment on this guys... i love you all please help me get through this.
</3 kelly
   
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hahaha i own at lifeeeee yessssss!!!!!!! |
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| mmm i duno about xanga anymoree?? should i keep it goin? comment me
 hahaha that is the funniest thing ive ever seen!! haha
xoxox<3 Kelly |
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| k well since my site is being a fugly hoe i cant put the pics from spring brake up so if yall wanna see them jus go here...
http://community.webshots.com/user/kellbellox
comment hoes!
xoxo<33 Kelly |
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I got this layout from layouts2love
. n now i cant even see him for like 5 weeks which totally blows. But i guess its ok because like we made up n everything but its stil kinda akward ( cam if you read this.. im just saying it is so dont get mad)
